Harleys and Yamahas

Training For: Springtime Tallahassee 5K

Cardio: 0

Weights: 0
Calories burned: 0

Food: Breakfast - Total Cinnamon Crunch w/ skim milk (213)
          Lunch - Bistro To-Go Salad (210)

          Snack - Apple (80), FiberOne Yogurt (80)
          Dinner - unknown as of yet

          Total Food: 583 (pending dinner total)

Self Confidence: 8, then 5

 

I felt good this morning, despite the fact that I was tired.  But, I grew happy very fast when a pair of banana republic pants I had bought long ago (back at my peak low-weight since being in Tallahassee) fit me this morning comfortably. There was even a little room to spare around my bum.  I had been avoiding wearing them for awhile because I was afraid of the "muffin top" they created, but, today, no muffin top.  :)  So, I was off to a good start.

 

Then, I get to work and remember that tonight, is day one of the motorcycle safe rider's course Steve and I had signed up for.  I am pretty nervous about this for a few reasons, none of which seem to be logical and typical of someone about to embark on this journey.

• Reason one: I've never driven a motorcycle.  Yes, this makes me uneasy about this course, because I've heard that many times experienced riders who let their license renewal lapse are forced to take this course.  Also, many people that know how to drive one and have never formally gotten their motorcycle license will be in this class. 
• Reason two: I hate being put on the spot - especially when I don't know the answer.  While there are no typical "answers" in this class, I'm horrified of making a mistake and looking like an idiot.  Completely illogical I know, considering the entire purpose of this class is to teach people who know nothing about riding how to ride.
• Reason three: I can't figure out why I'm not more excited about this.  I mean, c'mon, motorcycles are fun and badass.  I love going for rides on them.  So, why wouldn't I be super extra excited to learn how to drive one?  Well, let me rephrase that - I would be super excited to learn how to drive one if I could do it out in the middle of nowhere with only one or two people that I know and feel comfortable with teaching me - like, my dad (in VA).  I would love to learn from my dad, as it would be the most uninhibited non-threatening scenario that anyone could possibly imagine.

If you notice above, my calories burned for the day is zero.  This is because, class is from 6-9pm tonight, meaning, no gym time.  Not unless I want to skip dinner completely (with my neurosis kicking in saying "that might not be a bad idea after all").  And, being as neurotic I am about my food and workout schedule, this does not make me very happy.  Not to mention, dinner will most likely be homemade pizza - which while not the healthiest option, homemade is better than take out, as we use turkey pepperoni and homemade whole-wheat pizza crust, or, dinner will be take-out from somewhere.  I've eaten out at least once in the past 4 days.  It makes me sick just to think about that.  Moving on...

 

I need to find a way to channel this uneasy/nervous/annoyed energy into excitement.  I'm really hoping that when I get to class tonight, the teacher will be some uber-cool dude (yes dude, if its a chick, I'll probably feel more intimidated, again, completely illogical), and that everyone in the class will be mostly inexperienced and in the dark as much as I am.  I guess I will just have to wait and see.